This week marks some important anniversaries in my life.
Yesterday was my anniversary with WordPress, my website provider. I don’t know how long it’s been, but apparently, it was worth noting (for them anyway).
Also, this week was my twentieth anniversary as an administrative assistant (though I don’t remember the exact date). Full disclosure: this was never the career of my choosing. I actually went to school for graphic design, and was working in the graphics department at a television station, but when my husband and I moved to North Carolina, I couldn’t find a job in that field. I ended up going to a temp agency, which paired me with an admin job. Four companies and twenty years later, I’m proud of the work I’ve done. Most of it was office work, but I’ve been able to use my graphic skills for presentations and marketing materials (I pulled double duty as marketing coordinator for a year or so, but quickly found out it wasn’t what I wanted). I learned a lot and can honestly say I wouldn’t be the person I am today without the last twenty years. Life is going to do what it’s going to do. My advice is just to strap in and see where it takes you.
Lastly, one year ago today I had an emotional breakdown. If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, you know I deal with bipolar depression. And though I’ve been able to keep my emotions mostly controlled, last year was the breaking point. I couldn’t deal with the depression, couldn’t handle it and I broke down in front of my church. Only a few people knew then what I was dealing with, but that day marked a change in my life: I started tracking my moods afterward and in the subsequent days (365 of them), was able to take control of them. Which brings me to my latest project: 733 Days, a chronicle of my journey and hope for today. You might have noticed a link on the sidebar: I will be adding content to the website in the next couple of weeks, with the goal of going live by May 1, which marks the start of Mental Health Awareness Month and eventually becoming a book and a program.
Through this all (the career, the mental health issues, and yes, even the blog), I’ve discovered that life is a process. It’s not about how you start something, but how you end it, and while some of the things we experience aren’t fun, or desirable, they can make us into a greater version of ourselves, if we let them.